Tarot for Clarity: Crisis & Self-Doubt
Intro
Sometimes my feelings are subtle, like a hair brushing against my neck. But more often than not, they are like waves threatening to devour me. And I don’t realize what’s happening until I’m already drowning in them.
I’m not a fan of describing my emotionality, because it strikes as melodramatic and embarrassing, something trite to be easily dismissed.
One thing that I’ve learned thus far during my time on this earth is that we all experience life in different degrees. I’ve come to realize not everyone experiences the daily act of living in a deeply visceral way. That for some, not everyday is a challenge to be overcome.
Often, seemingly simple days feel like they may end me.
Where Tarot Comes In
But let’s move on to the good stuff though, shall we? Or to be more accurate, the rough stuff aka this tarot spread.
I believe the meaning of each cards shifts with the context of the person being read for, so this is my take on what these particular cards reflect for me in this moment. Take from it what resonates as true for you.
And remember that that which doesn’t resonate can often lead us where we need to go as well. In straying from the path that does not feel true, we may find ourselves moving towards one that does.
[Note: For today’s reading, my interpretations are largely inspired by Queering the Tarot by Cassandra Snow.]
The Sun
The first card is The Sun. The aspect of this card that speaks to me is the way the sun literally illuminates everything in its path. Snow explains that this includes even our shadows, the parts of ourself we’d prefer to keep hidden.
More than anything today, I have felt an inability to escape a part of me that terrifies me — the part of me that feels completely incapable of seeing my worth. The part of me that wants me to be so small I might disappear. The part that refrains from being passionate or confident because it’s too scary, unsafe.
